Over the last year leading up to this spring, all I did was research film MFA programs, work on applications, and finally applied to around 7. I got accepted into 5, and eventually got off the waitlist with good funding into one of my dream programs.
The problem was, over the course of this process, I started to get cold feet for a lot of reasons - personal life problems played a big factor, I had graduated film undergrad the year before and was more burnt out from film school than I think I realized, etc. By the time I got off the waitlist for my dream school and got enough funding, I only had a couple days before the April 15th deadline and was kind of checked out of the process, already planning out the rest of my next year without grad school and focusing on how I could improve my personal life situation back home.
I think if I hadn't been waitlisted, the personal issues in my life wouldn't have been present around that time and I would've committed. Now I'm feeling genuinely quite depressed about not going. I can apply again this cycle, but I'm worried I blew my chance and kinda self-rejected myself from film school. I'm very low income so there's very few schools that I could apply to that would give me enough funding for me to be able to attend, and that was one of them. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Any advice? For context, I'm 23, graduated film school in America in Spring of 25.
The problem was, over the course of this process, I started to get cold feet for a lot of reasons - personal life problems played a big factor, I had graduated film undergrad the year before and was more burnt out from film school than I think I realized, etc. By the time I got off the waitlist for my dream school and got enough funding, I only had a couple days before the April 15th deadline and was kind of checked out of the process, already planning out the rest of my next year without grad school and focusing on how I could improve my personal life situation back home.
I think if I hadn't been waitlisted, the personal issues in my life wouldn't have been present around that time and I would've committed. Now I'm feeling genuinely quite depressed about not going. I can apply again this cycle, but I'm worried I blew my chance and kinda self-rejected myself from film school. I'm very low income so there's very few schools that I could apply to that would give me enough funding for me to be able to attend, and that was one of them. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Any advice? For context, I'm 23, graduated film school in America in Spring of 25.
