Holy smokes! I got my acceptance letter today! I'm in!!
To say I'm elated would be an absurd understatement. Words can't express the relief. I don't even think it's truly sunk in yet!
Epilogue: 6 Years Later.
I stand before the threshold of a new beginning now, much as I did back in March 2009 when the USC acceptance letter hit my mailbox. And thinking about the twisted, gnarled path that brought me to where I am today reminded me of the guidance I'd had when I first set foot upon it, and so here I am. I have no idea if anyone I know from USC is reading this; if they are they'd agree that a lot of other people would probably be better suited to a particular kind of retrospective; I'm just a guy, and your mileage may vary...but for what it's worth, for the benefit of the those of you who are just now starting out, here are my impressions after the fact.
For one thing, it really wasn't what I thought it was going to be, but that proved to actually be a good thing.
Specifically, I imagined that the vibe of the place would be one of collaborative creativity. Once you'd made it through the gates, you were in the club; you would all learn together and it would be okay to screw up in a sort of safety zone of learning. In reality, the school felt very internally competitive in a way that I wasn't prepared for nor expecting; I was left with a distinct feeling of continually having to essentially re-apply to the school, because all of the insane competitiveness over roles on certain popular class projects.
I quickly learned a lot of things:
1. I wanted to be Steven Spielberg
2. Lots of other people wanted to be Steven Spielberg. And Ingmar Bergman. And Quentin Tarantino. And Jim Jarmusch. And...
3. I actually really hated directing, which is what I thought I'd always wanted to do.
The realization of #3 above forced me to sort of subconsciously look elsewhere from a very early point after my arrival on the program. By the second semester I'd done sound effects for most of my friend's movies; after a brief stint in production design, I joined one of the aforementioned popular class projects as one of two sound engineers, and began to follow that path in earnest.
So in a way, the biggest shock that could have been a bad thing (the unexpected competitive feel) was more or less responsible for finding what I truly feel is my calling, and therefore was a great filter. Since USC teaches you everything, you have ample opportunity to try different fields and naturally gravitate towards what you truly love...whether you think you know what that is yet or not.
And this is where USC really shines: if you find a particular skill or field you really, truly love and want to do with every fiber of your being, the faculty really responds to that, and you make amazing connections with them that are meaningful and important. I can't of course speak for all the departments; I can only offer a sample of one of them, but the sound department is nothing short of the best possible film sound education in the world. They continue to be supportive and amazing, and I consider myself very lucky to have learned from them.
USC's School of Cinematic Arts was far from the loose, fun atmosphere of creativity and support I naively imagined, but in retrospect I'm very glad it was. It forced me to really think about what I loved, and the work I did as a sound designer at the school was instrumental in helping me get an internship right after graduating, which led to several contract roles, and now, finally, a permanent position at what I consider to be my dream job.
The other important thing I didn't consider was the people I met. The people are what made the whole thing worth it...people who I initially met on this board in fact. The guy who posted, Xavier he called himself, is now one of my best friends from the program. And there were countless others because of whom I was able to continue freelancing between contracts, and have awesome people to pal around with on weekends / write, plan, and collaborate with.
Other cool things that happened:
- Casually strolled by Steven Spielberg, George Lucas, and Ron Howard and was totally chill about it
- Got to find out what happens when you're trying to get exposed film from a camera to a sealed tin and the film comes off the spool while in the darkbag and the whole roll of film is unravelling in the bag and you're silently freaking out and the teacher is starting to wonder why the heck you're taking so long
- Had access to endless awesome prop houses in hollywood and wound up zooming through the universal backlot on a golfcart to go look at a pastry cabinet from 1958
- saw the HOT AIR hairdryer from SpaceBalls in a prophouse
- saw Back to the Future in Grauman's Chinese Theater
- Signed up for an amazing summer class and watched a ton of film noir films in a theater on campus
- Worked as an intern on a reality show which interviewed animal attack victims. Tried to high-five a guy with no arms.
- touched the real, actual Ecto-1 with my actual real hand.
- Was walking to a screening when whoa, a random Jonathan Frakes appears. I try to be normal, and fail; I mean, I had his action figure! He smiles and totally calls me out on being nervous.
- Got yelled at / almost chased by campus police for gazing forlornly at Trojan football practice from the bleachers of the running track.
- Bought a boogie board; went to the beach literally 3 times.
I think the point here is that even though it was difficult at times, and not really what I expected, and in spite of the loans and student debt, going to USC was unquestionably the right decision. My goal in 2009 was to stop wasting my life doing something I hated, and work toward doing something I loved; I have definitely started to get very close to completing my goal, and it never would have happened without USC.
Not sure if this made a lot of sense, but hopefully someone can find some use in it.
Edit: hopefully you don't mind the insane thread bump, but I thought it would make it more interesting..(feel free to move this, mods, if it's a problem)