I’m with you. I’m checking my email everyday for that update about the award package lol. I wish it was as affordable as the other schools I applied to.
And about you not being sure I’ll say this (even though you in no way asked me lol) definitely reach out to faculty and ask them anything that has you feeling doubtful. They were so open after my interview and we emailed back and forth for a few days. They answered all my long questions very thoroughly. Now that we’re in the decision stage I feel they’ll be even more helpful. And if you can visit your other choices (I guess when Corona calms her ass down) do that as well. Make a pros and cons list and be a real about it. Pray on it (if you’re a prayer obviously lol) and then whatever you decide don’t look back or listen to anyone else’s opinion. Wherever you end up you’re going to do great work. The school itself can’t make it break you. That’s how I see it Anyway. I hope my unsolicited advice helps you somehow!